Year 2014

Dear Diary,

In response to 16 year old Self

Its been a pleasant surprise to chance upon blogsphere on my super rusty blog.

The last time I checked, my last post was wayyy back in 2009! when I was still a young unruly child *chuckles*

And I chance upon my super old blog post back in April 2006 ---> *points at Archives* that states the TOP 5 THINGS WISHED TO BE ACCOMPLISHED AT AGE 26
- good career with good prospect
- good bf
- salsa dancing (no idea what I was thinking back then)
- kids n babies!
- left out goal 5 on the post.

and now I m hitting 24. Not too far from 26 years old I guess.

but somehow I managed to achieved 2 goals out of the 4.

- somehow manage to stumbled upon a good job in accounting firm
- somehow along the way manage to snagged a totally cute, sweet and caring bf! haha

lol. had no idea how I manage to accomplish them.

and since its a brand new sparkly 2014, here are my dreams and aspirations for the next 5 years:

- buy a home sweet home
- get married in a simple, fun wedding ceremony
- have cute little babies and start a family!
- rise up to corporate ranks and be in a supervisory role.
- get my CPA cert and hopefully after that able to pursue an European MBA :)

here hoping that  all dreams and wishes come true! :)

chi ching wasted a lot of f*cking time being indecisive about education options and choices.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Book Review:

I'm feelin hardworkin therefore I will do book reviews!!


PS:I know my reviews will probably suck but hey at least I TRIED.

My Synopsis:

This is one book with multiple names.When it was first published, it was given the title " Rosie Dunne" then later it was changed to a more ermm poetic title, "Where Rainbows End". But I assured you that this book has absolutely nothing to do with rainbows or where it ended up. In fact, its a story of two childhood best friends, Alex and Rosie.Alex is the overworked harvard educated doctor while Rosie is the struggling, smart-mouthed single mum.Throughout various stages of life, they managed to remain best friends despite juggling work and family commitments.Funny thing was, Alex loved Rosie and Rosie loved Alex.However, due to certain events and various misunderstandings, they don't end up with each other and marrying the wrong people. So, this book detailed the various "wrong turns" both of them go through until they finally make the right move.

My opinion:

Oh my gosh, reading this book was like reading history of various families.The book detailed the events that happen to alex + rosie and their respective families from birth up till old age.Birthdays, anniversaries, holidays etc nothing is spared.

Rosie can be really entertaining at times with her witty one liners but she can really be a pain in the ass at times.Alex character doesnt have much development and he sounds like a real boring career man to me.

The storyline flows in the forms of letters and chat messages and it can be very messy and all out of the place.Halfway through the book, I am very tempted to give up because the only plot would be guessing whether alex and rosie actually end up together at last .So, if you don't have the patience of reading through 400++ pages to find out whether they do end up with each other, avoid this book at all cost.

My Synopsis:

Elizabeth is a career women who have quite a lot at her hands.She have to to deal with a difficult father, a wild (almost crazy) younger sister and even having to take care of her sister son, Luke.Yes,life for Elizabeth is very busy indeed....and also painful and lonely.In addition to so many responsibilities, Elizabeth have to endure the pain and suffering of a mother who abandoned her and wounds of a past relationship.

And that is when Ivan comes into the picture.Ivan full time job is making friends.No kidding.And this books detailed how Elizabeth manage to overcome the pain and suffering she felt, to accept her past with Ivan help.

My Opinion:

I wasn't expecting much when I picked up this book because the synopsis on the backcover doesnt really appeal to me much.

How wrong I were because this book just blew me away.The storyline was great,depicting how past wounds could haunt some of us till this day and how important it is to be open and honest with it.

Elizabeth is a really good person underneath those walls and shields she created to keep people away.She's cares for her family so much to the extent of sounding like sacrificial lamb.And the pain and loneliness she feels isnt' alien to any of us because most of us feel like that at certain point in time.

Ivan is also a really good person just be doing his job properly.He taught her how to be more open with herself, to demand more from people,lessons which she havent's yet grasped.We need to have more people like Ivan in this materialistic world.

Though certain parts of the story really cliched and stuff, the good points overrides the flaws, I supposed.

So overall, great story, lovable characters = Great Book ^^

Its weird the closer exams are, the MORE i procrastinate!!!
must.stop.procrastinating

gambate evry1 for exams!!

Sungai Chilling trip

this is WAY OVERDUE
but went to sungai chilling waterfalls few weeks back n its extremely gorgeous!!!
=)

trek thru 7 rivers n 6km thru jungles
XD

pics courtesy of some dude frm monash nature society
sowee cannot really remember ur name O.O

Dear bloggie,
I just turned 19 years old today!! times really flies and next year is when my age started with the number "2" instead of "1" o.O
So what has happen when I was 18 ?
Well 18 years old brought a lot of change.I complete A levels,entered NS and get kicked into the corporate workforce.National service was a good experience.I learn new things about myself each day. And I get 2 experienced happiness that I never knew existed.One of my happy moments is camping in the woods.I get 2 build my own tent in the jungle n talk to my campmates till the wee of the morning. That was an experience I would never forget.
Its so different from the commercialism of KL.in Kl everybody wants more and more.But in the kampungs that I went to,people are happy with what they have.For example even though the rambutan tree is their source of income,the villagers still give us big baskets of rambutans to thank us.Somehow this kind of generousity is lacking in KL.
And I got to know buddha oso and that was a major change in my life.Before that I was lost and lacking in direction.But buddhism has taught me a few things and now I am more clear about my purpose.
Corporate world is an eye opener.I was smacked with reality.Life was tougher than I imagine.The gruelling hours of work just 2 earn a meagre salary,the competitiveness of everything.I matured a lot in that short 3 months.
Well ,what do I hope for when I m 19?
I hope that I will learn more about myself this year.
I hope that I will learn more about life.
I hope that I will reach closer to my dreams.

Monologue with self.

dear bloggie,

have I make the right choice?

o.O

aikss.

such an old woman already and yet not sure yet.

goodness.

most people probably knew it by the age of 10 or something.

and yet, ME old woman 19 years old liao

and still DON'T KNOW!!!!

sometimes I secretly wished I just ask some random old fengshui guy.

He say what then I just do what laa.

sheesh.

or maybe I knew the answer inside myself.

but maybe too afraid. Self doubt and fear.

why am I so afraid? why can't I have a tad bit confidence?

I hate myself.

I hate that I m so weak.

I hate that I m so easily swayed so easily influenced.Like a paddy plant blown by the wind.

I hate that I m such a hypocrite. Acting my way all the time.Pretending everything is okay.

I need to stop this.

I WANT to do things I like for once. And not because someone ask me.

I WANT to be stronger and have more opinions.

I WANT to stop pretending. I m so exhausted from acting laa. Goodness. so exhausting trying to be normal when inside I m like screaming like some f*cking lunatic.

I WANT to be more of myself and less of what people expect of me.