Sungai Chilling trip

this is WAY OVERDUE
but went to sungai chilling waterfalls few weeks back n its extremely gorgeous!!!
=)

trek thru 7 rivers n 6km thru jungles
XD

pics courtesy of some dude frm monash nature society
sowee cannot really remember ur name O.O

Dear bloggie,
I just turned 19 years old today!! times really flies and next year is when my age started with the number "2" instead of "1" o.O
So what has happen when I was 18 ?
Well 18 years old brought a lot of change.I complete A levels,entered NS and get kicked into the corporate workforce.National service was a good experience.I learn new things about myself each day. And I get 2 experienced happiness that I never knew existed.One of my happy moments is camping in the woods.I get 2 build my own tent in the jungle n talk to my campmates till the wee of the morning. That was an experience I would never forget.
Its so different from the commercialism of KL.in Kl everybody wants more and more.But in the kampungs that I went to,people are happy with what they have.For example even though the rambutan tree is their source of income,the villagers still give us big baskets of rambutans to thank us.Somehow this kind of generousity is lacking in KL.
And I got to know buddha oso and that was a major change in my life.Before that I was lost and lacking in direction.But buddhism has taught me a few things and now I am more clear about my purpose.
Corporate world is an eye opener.I was smacked with reality.Life was tougher than I imagine.The gruelling hours of work just 2 earn a meagre salary,the competitiveness of everything.I matured a lot in that short 3 months.
Well ,what do I hope for when I m 19?
I hope that I will learn more about myself this year.
I hope that I will learn more about life.
I hope that I will reach closer to my dreams.

Monologue with self.

dear bloggie,

have I make the right choice?

o.O

aikss.

such an old woman already and yet not sure yet.

goodness.

most people probably knew it by the age of 10 or something.

and yet, ME old woman 19 years old liao

and still DON'T KNOW!!!!

sometimes I secretly wished I just ask some random old fengshui guy.

He say what then I just do what laa.

sheesh.

or maybe I knew the answer inside myself.

but maybe too afraid. Self doubt and fear.

why am I so afraid? why can't I have a tad bit confidence?

I hate myself.

I hate that I m so weak.

I hate that I m so easily swayed so easily influenced.Like a paddy plant blown by the wind.

I hate that I m such a hypocrite. Acting my way all the time.Pretending everything is okay.

I need to stop this.

I WANT to do things I like for once. And not because someone ask me.

I WANT to be stronger and have more opinions.

I WANT to stop pretending. I m so exhausted from acting laa. Goodness. so exhausting trying to be normal when inside I m like screaming like some f*cking lunatic.

I WANT to be more of myself and less of what people expect of me.

this is way overdue but :

INTERNSHIP AT SC ASSOCIATES (AUDIT FIRM)

from left : William d playboy (haha) , ah yan d mature 23 yr old , me , ah ming d happy-go-lucky one, and mr lau my supervisor oso d butt of jokes and teasing at office

left : Ms mak d manager of d office n oso power women

right : Ms Yee d one that introduce me to boddhi group

so anyway spent 3 months there as a trainee. with various jobs ranging from shredding papers O.O to receptionist (for the day) to updating client list to tax assistant to book keeper O.O i did one day stock take oso at some random small shop at subang

all in all it was an okkk experience learn a lot and definitely matured a lot.

Buddhist Volunteering work (Ushering)

this the poster for the buddhist musical thingy.

so anyway last saturday when to do volunteer work for buddhist youth organization,persatuan boddhi malaysia event, which is basically a buddhist musical.ermm wen in d morning to menara PGRM in the fternoon then wen about the place watching performance rehearsals n stuff. Its a buddhist musical thingy so there are dancers, singers etc. Then at 5 have to go briefing n stuff for ushers.At 7, ppl start packing the place n its crowded n i was busy like a bee.goodness start ushering checking evryone tickets n stuff n ask them 2 switch off their handphones.Then later fter ushering wen to help fold all these leaflets n later wen to curi tengok the show a bit.Manage to catch this amazing dance by this wheelchair bound dancer n I m utterly mesmerized by him cos he is so good.He make dancing on a wheelchair the most amazing thing ever n he make the able bodied dancers look like nothing.*Blown away* Then later have to says thanks to the audience who come 2 watch the show n then start panicking cos I dun have transport back home.Suppose 2 follow this guy who is fetching me 2 the LRT but in the end I ran off alone cos I couldn make it. below is the website for the event:

http://www.bodhi.org.my/

http://www.czrl4.bodhi.org.my/

I know this post is way overdue but

NS IS OFFICIALLY OVER!!!!

to chinese gang kem bakau resort siri 5 kumpulan 3 :

(pic was taken on the last day of buddhist class)

left to right

Girls top:May( big sister/little lamb), Vicky (pretty trendy one),Gigi (cute,funny one)bottom:ME,yeechee (tomboy maid),Setling (rich girl) n oso Aeris(not in picture)(cute bouncy one)

Guys top:Ah Bear (chatty),Ah Sing (lengchai),No Name (laughing buddha),Ah Wai (sentimental one),Tony (mega tall one 185 cm) ,Ah Tou (ketua lapor) ,CheeChoon (frog),Ah Liang (hamsap liang) ,Ah Hou (the one with the supermodel girlfren/lengchai one) ,Vincent (nono),Ah Fung (mega quiet one)

bottom:Ah Yong (old man),O di (badboy),Jay Chou (look n talk like jay chou),Jacky Wu (irritating one :P) ,Ah Shuan (girl's bestfren/LENGLUI) ,Siew June (mega tall one 190 cm sheesh) michael (not in picture)( michelle!!!) kelvin (not in picture)(bibobibo)
I MISSED U GUYS!!! *HUGS* THANK U FOR ALL D NICE MEMORIES!!!

this is me in the heavy baju loreng!!!! we have to march under d hot sun in THIS!!! n during the marching competition ALPHA (my kawad team) got first place!!!!!! ^^

the only 7 chinese girls in the entire camp!!!! out of 60 girls.O.O n we were wearing what they call 'baju kelas' which is basically the clothes that u have to wear for character building class n kenegaraan classes.n me with the thingy on the shoulder is called a 'pangkat' a post cos I got the lousiest post of all which is:ketua kaum cina wanita O.O

THE FIRST DISH I EVER COOK IN MY WHOLE LIFEEE!!!!!!!! while camping in d jungle,all we get 2 eat is tinned sardines,eggs,rice,tinned green beans etc

THE LAST NITE!!!! taken the nite before we depart camp n this pic was taken with cikgu Nasir my favourite teacher haha at first i thought he was perverted but he's really nice n treat us all equally.haha

this is my bed!!!! around 20 of us sleep in the dorm !!! thats my name pasted on the cabinet!!!

posing with the M16 guns!! first time in my life i held a gun in my hands n shoot it!! but the impact was hard laa n my shoulders hurt but all in all its fun haha

EXAMS.ARE.OVER.
>.<
need i say more?
oh ya
NOTICE: I M OFF TO NS TMR.
this blog shall be very dead until september. not that it is not very dead now either.
have very mixed feelings bout NS.
i hope i dont die there O.O but if i do i would like 2 state here that i wished 2 be cremated n not be buried cos i dun wanna become PETROLEUM few gazillion years later!!! oh god should i start a will first?
oh ya since i wanna give farewell wishes also because i m never ever gonna see u guys anymore for goodness how long
BYE BYE KIWI SHAJITHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BYE BYE VIJAL BRINJAL!!!!!
BYE BYE JEY!!!!!!!!!!!!
BYE BYE KHAI WEN!!!!!!!!!
BYE BYE YILI!!! (if u r goin off)
BYE BYE PIKYIN (if u r goin off)
BYE BYE RACHEL NGE!!
BYE BYE MCKL!!!!
BYE BYE SO7O1 ALPHA N ARTS!!!!!

Thank You.
*breathes in*
Thank you
Grace, for your super adorable kon teddybear!!,Michelle ,for you teddy love box,i'll put all my memorable messages in them instead of coins, Ee Ching,for the super cute flower, i'll put it in my vase,Weishan, for the teddybear its standing side by side with grace's teddy by my table haha, Jia Wei,for your notebook,you notebook santa laa haha Yili + Kahyan +Pikyin for the teddytales pencil case and white nail polish and the super heavy keychain!!!
Beverly,for you wish on frenster this year i WILL wished you!!! muahaha *determined* Lizhen,for the wish on frenster of course i didnt forget you!!!
Also thank you for all the people who sms me on my birthday,
Ee Ching and Kahyan who sms me 12 midnite, Munkuan who is the last 2 sms me and who still remembers my birthday !!! *touched* we never keep in touch for so many years and yet you remember, Weishan for your adorable sms,Liyoke,Jessica,Daphne,Yili,Pikyin,Chong Zeen oh god who else did i miss?
And also to everyone who wished me on my brithday Shajitha,Vijal,Ashwin,Benjamin etc
Thank you to all of you who attended the gathering yesterday thank you for making me feel so happy i had a great time and i misses all of you!!!! I feel so comfartable with all of you thank you for accepting me as a fren with my obvious flaws *hugs*
Arigato gozaimasu!!!
XD
* breathes out*

Turning 18
Hit the big 1-8 on tuesday.Its weird considering how much time flies and the fact that I'm officially OLD.*grows beard* in 2 yrs time i'll hit the twenties!!! aiks!!! gahhh more responsibilities no more depending on mom n dad anymore *sobs* i've grew 2 depend on them a lot weiii n i've dunno how could i adapt.
Looking back,when i was 12 i wanna be 18 cos back then u tink being 18 is cool u'll get 2 do a lot of stuff on ur own and now that i'm 18,i wanna go back being twelve!!!!! haha but 18 is without its perks
below are few things that i can LEGALLY do (muahahhaha)
1.smoke
2.go to nightclubs without having to resort to fake IDs (not that i'm a nightclub person i'm more of the piano bar jazz bar type of person)
3.do drugs (oh wait this is not legal)
4.have my OWN bank account
5have my OWN credit card
6.have sex (O.O)
7.get married (mega O.O)
looking back at my younger days i feel so EMBARASSED at all the stupid things i've done wei.*hides* although my memory of my younger days isn't very clear but a few things stuck out.I've remember all the stupid fights i had wiv my frens over silly things,not realising that i dun get 2 see them often anymore.like i remember how i fought with liyoke once over something riduculously stupid that i m too embarassed 2 mention.*smacks head* i mean is that me?!! how could i've been SO stupid?
i've remember crying like shit back wen i was 9 because my teacher switches places and i dun get 2 sit wiv my best fren anymore.O.O
i've remember how immature i've behave wen i was 11 or 12 all the stupid things i've done.eg spitting saliva on a polysterene and throwing it at d back row people.or use d highlighter and draw smilies on people shirt.or playing ice and fire.O.O
i've remember all the stupid things me n liyoke did back in form 4.like sipping milk chocalate in class,singing "because u love me" gossiping about evryone.giving evryone in class nicknames.eg black widow etc
i've dont think i've done anything stupid wiv michelle or grace cos they are very grounded people.O.O
sighhh
those were childish days that i wished i've forgotten i mean is that really me?!!! omgoodnesss as i grew i've learned a few things
1.I've learned that the purpose we are living and breathing on this very earth is to serve others.those who dont understand will lead a hard life
2.I've learned that i dont have 2 give a damn about wat people think or say cos they are not living my life.
3.i realised that i dont have to conform 2 watever anyone expects me 2 do.hey if i wanna dye my hair pink i'll just dye pink
4.i've learned that social status is just that.its just a everyone perception.most important is how u feel or whether u r happy with what u r doin.like there r some people who become doctors for their parents n i think thats wrong
the most important is whether u r happy doin it.:P

POLITICAL REVOLUTION
okiess!!! so anyway have to blog about march 8 cos its probably end up in sejarah negara.this is so chi ching at the age of 40 would nvr forget things like these
anyway one of malaysia most shocking moments happen cos the opposition won 5 STATES (penang,selangor,kedah,kelantan,perak)
OMGOODNESSSSS~~~~~~~~
*wipes sweat*
wait..cn i blog things like these? O.O better not say much so anyway opposition won quite a lot of parliamentary seats cant remeber the figures weii n in my area (petaling jaya utara) is bein controlled by DAP.haih regret that nite didnt went n listen to the speech cos was flicking thru utube n found snipppets of the ceramah
anyway on march 8 my whole family was on the couch watching the tv screen so anyway at d beginning BN won a lot in the sabah n sarawak n we were between flicking channels n denn *dang dang dang* around 11 something...
--samy vellu lost--
*silence*
--sharizat lost to anwar daughter--
*silence*
--penang state falls to DAP---
*more silence*
OMGOODNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i m like fricking shocked weiiii its like "harr?!!! r u serious?!!!" then i have to wear my glasses to check whetehr i read properly *freaks out* its quite bewidering then i m glued to the tv screen till 2 something n i couldnt take it anymore n plonk on my bed this seriously affect malaysia n all its people weiiii
i mean wats happening? its like some new era or something weiii more results cn be found on the malaysia kini website n more googling lead me to my area MP's blog O.O nt sure whether i should disclose here fuhhhhhhh n theres a BLOGGER turn ELECTION CANDIDATE hahaa
hu says blogging is wasting time ?

World Soft Toy Day
so anyway on thurs we had this soft toy day thingy organized by the juniors carmen n ermm how 2 spell his name yun hee or something i just dismissed it off as something childish until lilien send me a message " brin soft toys!!" so wat the heck just brought ee yore to college to be paraded off den went to school n fuhh!!! soft toy galore laaa shajy brought a puppy that looks really like a real dog haha then my class guys all super feminine laa sze wei was purposely acting all gay with devan's koala haha!!! then ben chui is acting gay oso cos he sleeps with his soft toy!!!! omgoodness the world has change weiii n ben chui's one is exactly like shajy ones juts diff color then ermmm durin physics lab my close fren hurt me n i cried that time n we freakinly skipped half of physics lab sorry mr chan~~~sigh i m so possesive of my frens at times den durin break justin throw his super dirty purple dinosaur aptly named " Dino" at us !! eeekkkksss den
MS LIM BROUGHT A SOFT TOY!!!!!
omgoodnesss !!!! n wen we ask y she chosen that soft toy she said cos it has big brains like her hhahhahaha
all in all it was a good idea to brin our softtoys !!! to lighten the mood at col

solid proof that chi ching is a lazy person
*stares at blog*
okis!! so anyway february was d happening month!!!!
CNY
okiees!!! so anyway cny was like how it is evryyr go back to tangkak with the chinese new year songs blazing in the car cue " gong xi gong xi gong xi ni!!" den ermm stays at granpa hse den ermmm reunion dinner but wat i love most is the countdown in nw yr eve super nicee gorgeous fireworks and the neighbours all play firecrackers n stuff *smile* haha den erm our neighbours oso go amok n set off this 3000 bucks fireworks den my 5th uncle oso set off this super long fire cracker!!! makes my ears go deaf haha den on the second day went to my mums side fuyoh frm 12 till 12 midnite!!!! goodness went hse hopping frm tangkak to melaka to muar etc den have this great dinner at nite wiv my sister keep hinting to me that my cousin brother who was sitting beside me is her TYPE.goodness laaa sheesh n we were sitting right smack in the middle of a wedding reception!!!!! *fans self* with all the people around us goin yam sengg O.o then on the 3rd day went to my uncles who is also an along open hse OO but my uncles was nice they had an indian chef and the food was nicee okkkk thats about cny cant really remember much anymore oh ya n the last count of yeesang eaten is 8!!!! wakakaka
Valentine Day
okies!!! V day is also officialyy Single.Awareness.Day haha note the acronyms so anyway V day was like any normal skl day for me went to skl n receive chocaltes frm frens n wishes.i wished it was friday laa so that boleh go out but oh well n m shocked no one gave anytin to vijal or olivia *gasp* i was expecting bouquets on vijal the brinjal desk though hmmm okkk since there is nothin absolutely to blog about V day i shall post this!! muahhahhahaha
CHI CHING'S DREAM GUY
notice the word dream guy that exist only in dreams n not in reality
hmmmmmmm i dun prefer any specific type though nerd,rocker,smarty pants,lala dun really have a particular type i guess most important is the CONNECTION cos some people although they are like the perfect dream guy eg hot + smart + really sweet = perfect dream guy.but u just dun feel the "sparks" den there is no point riteee cos wen u feel the sparks only u will make an effort to maintain the relationship.i guess u can feel the connection like same frequency like that the connection is like how i feel wen talkin wiv my close frens its just feel right and u noe u want 2 spend time talkin 2 that person haha for example the connection i feel wen i m speakin to grace,li yoke,vijal and michelle like that like u feel like talkin to them everytin n tellin them evrytin like that just that my close frens r girls n i havent met a guy close fren before
in short words my dream guy would be a guy who is my best fren haha
OB Nite
okies!!! so anyway OB nite was yesterday
HAIR
clip it up with a clip
MAKEUP
vijal's mom help by using my makeup bought a lot of stuff like eyeliner mascara etc etc
DRESS
jingle's dress which is gorgeous!!!!! i love the design on the back of the dress
SHOES
jessica mega silver high heels
TOTAL EXPENDITURE ON OB NITE=100 bucks
yessss i spend 100 bucks on makeup and acesssories so sue me kkk but buying make up is a good investment cos u cn use it for years!!!
so anyway OB nite was normal i guesss haha so went to vijal hse to get ready then have to hike the MONORAIL to crowne plaza hotel!!!! aiksss so much for grand entrance laaa n d whole time vijal n her mum is arguing *pats vijal* tension is really high between them n its affecting my mood as well so anyway wen we walk down the stairs to the ballroom we saw so many mat sallehs n we were thinking "did we come to the right place?" then called shajy haha n we are at the right place OO so anyway the rooom was spacious!!! i mean seriously big!!!! n d chandeliers r preetty the went around camwhoring n chattin about n the n there were performances by vanessa,lilien,manpreet n their belly dancing,the bands by the marchies and the new batch etc etc it was reall nice performances n evry1 did a good job vanessa voice is amazing n rishma was H-O-T haha and evry1 look so good that nite!!!! the girls especially so much diff frm their normal skl wear
for example michelle's sister is like fuyoh!!! seriously pretty that nite n evry1 dress r gorgeous for example like rachel nge's dresss its really nice i love the red colour of the dreess now comes the FOOD!!!! the moment i've been waiting for the food was okay for example fettucini,mushrooms etc n i broke my vegetarinisme again wen i saw the lobster soup!!!! mmmm...n the choc mousses was pretty okay just a tad too sweet then the dance floor open n fuyoh!!! evry1 turn amok haha!!!! i was just moving about attempting to dance a little and laughing like a mad cow haha fuyoh!!! n i saw ms suen jia wei letting loose on then wild floor working on it *shocked* on the fternoon evry1 was like good girls study n all n in the nite its a diff story haha n i saw kenneth dancing oso!!! haha n its just bewildering haha n chun meng was so cute laaa!!! jumoing up n down like that HAHA n sze wei was tryin very hard to dance n goin " oh shit" if he got the steps wrong haha there r so many funny monments n theres one wen ghana was dancing at li yoke n she turn away haha so anyway on the dancefloor i was laughin non stop only oh well
but i feel the dance floor is very how to say arrr like empty n meaningless like u just dance n go siao for a few moments n thats it
so me, li yoke n hui wen( the "non clubbers" ) went around the place takin photos n exploring the hotel there also like a lounge bar n we listen a bit n the place is really gorgeous!!!! the lights n all n super lot of mat sallehs who just give us curious stares hhaa

bewarned : emo post to the few ppl hu read this (michelle etc) dun read it if u dun wan ur mood 2 b crushed
i want a gang not 1 close fren
i want a gang of nice sincere frens nt a gang hu backstab each other once someone leaves the table i swear if i heard someone again backstabbin at each other i will scream why is it like this why must certain ppl screw evrytin up why all the drama why r u lying at each other why r u talkin bad about each other frens dun do this to each other frens dun go tell other ppl n d whole world each other secrets frens dun cal their frens bitches frens dun laugh at their frens
I want a close fren that shares same classes with me my only close fren d one that i cn talk 2 to is in a diff class n out timetables clashed so i cnt talk 2 her cnt share with her my class stories n cnt eat break 2geter why must i be in alpha laaa i wanna go beta where i cn talk 2 li yoke like we always do back in highschool i wanna play cards wiv li yoke n hui wen n jingle tey all
i want a gang u noe a gang where u play 2geter n trust each other a gang where i cn talk freely
its been such a long time since i cn talk freely in a gang nowadays i just join random ppl n just listen quietly the only time where i cn talk freely is with li yoke tey all n tere r nt in my class so i cnt hang out wiv them muchh
*cries heart out*
its been such a long time since i talk freely
not that i have no frens but its just ppl that is acquantances not real frens just random ppl whom u noe deep down that u wont click off as good frens
i wanna talk freely i dun wanna remain silent like this i dun wanna remain a stone
oh god i m feeling more stoned evryday n ppl whom i dun trust keep buggin me n backstabbin their frens n tellin me their frens secret why cant u juts leave n go? n stop buggin me
*scream*
i wanna wanna talk i wanna wanna have a fren
i want a fren thats all
is that too much to ask?
T^T
T^T
i dun wanna be a a stone
i want to live
i dun wanna be a stone n just listen quietly to ppl conversation n just laugh at their jokes
i wanna talk freely
where d stuff i said isnt weird
guess in my current situation thats impossible
T^T
all this backstabbing that u guys r doin (u noe hu u r) is killin me
i want a fren
a sincere fren
i cannot continue being such a cold person anymore cos one day i will crumble
n i m scared i cnt get up once i crumbled

Orientation
okkkk so its orientation for the newbies and their class name is lamda and gamma haha makes alpha and beta sounds so much better weii haha so ermm didnt went for the orientation in d mornin cos i wanna sleep!! dun really noe wat happen either but ermmmm ragging is normal lorr all the newbies have 2 get our signature but no fair laa some people frm jan batch names is not on d list n i put my name as sotong and whoever draw me a sotong i will sign for them so it become my trademark n a few juniors come up 2 me n ask me " can i draw a sotong for u?" haihz sigh some people really dunno how 2 draw a sotong few gave me an octopus n 1 even draw me a prawn!! goodness and ermm some normal ragging is singing doing random stuff like fetching water bottle etc n some extreme ones are like d one me weekiat shajy n vijal rag a guy 2 propose 2 a girl for a date for ob nite n he got rejected omg poor fellow in a whole room of ppl he gt rejected *guilty* poor guy is scarred for life weiii but he didnt look sad though he just treat it as a joke n manpreet is seriously mean at ragging laa ask people to climb up n down the staricase 5 times,ask joseph brother 2 stand at d centre of library with his leg up,ask pikyin sister 2 sit under a table etc etc and random ragging is askin d juniors 2 play ice n fire O.O d most extreme and meanest one is chun meng laa!! ask a junior 2 eat chilipadi meanie *smacks* and arjan put his nickname as horny so gt random juniors goin around askin random questions such as "r u horny?" hahahhahhahah
so comments on this yr batch is they look so young!!! i mean they look so innocent n all haha n theres a lot of sisters n brothers pair like khai wern brother,pikyin sister,kenneth sister,joseph brother,christie brother,neighbour brother who is oso my neighbour whom i discovered days ago etc etc n NO HOT GUYS!!! ZERO NIL NADA sighhhh but there is one who looks 10% like peterpan!!!! cos that day durin pre u meeting i was sitting facing the crowd n most of the time i ddint wear glasses so wen i turned i thought i saw a ghost of peterpan *gasp* cos he look like peterpan frm certain angle den later wen he ask my signature n i get 2 look close up properly only realise he look 15% like peterpan *phew* frm near he doesnt look like him at all *phew* but still ARGH just wen i forgotten all about peterpan his lookalike come n haunt me T^T T^T T^T sigh hav2 wait till uni to gawk at hot guys
orientation is normal normal lorr i guess its fun for people who likes 2 bully other people but i tink its direspectful just because we r there for 1 yr doesnt give right to treat them like that

Language of The Heart
Yesterday while laying on my bed,I chanced upon the language of the heart.The language of the heart is very weak but thankfully its still there.Thankfully it havent died yet underneath all these social pressure and expectations.Haha.I was just laying down on my bed thinking and thinking of all these random things then it just hit me.
So this is what the language of the heart is telling me:
-That I m in a wrong situation.I shouldn't be in A-Levels.I should instead go to a liberal arts education system where people get to developed more skills,explore more about themselves etc.I think the education system is wrong.Because all it has produced is job ready machines and not people with awareness and who can think.This is wrong and it will crumble down one day when it realise they are just moving at the same point and not moving forward.But sigh I cant do much because my parents want me to be in A-Levels.
-That I should become a psychologist and help people.I know I will have my greatest strenght only when I help people.I have no idea how those multi billionaires got their motivation from but I knew that I m only strong when I help people.I still remember few months back when I help a blind and something inside me just blossom and its such a wonderful feeling.I feel so strong then like I could conquer anything.
-That I should paint again.These restrictions around me all these rules and regulations is killing me.I need to get out of this situation.I need to go somewhere open somewhere liberal where I could paint again.Paint anything I want Paint my thoughts paint the scenery and just soaked myself in my art.Lose myself in my art.Its been such a long time since I felt that and I wanna feel that again.
-That I should read more.There is something calling for me.And I am seeking for it.
I m not seeking for happiness because happiness is within yourself.
I m not seeking for companionship because eventhough someone is miles away You can still see them inside you.
I m seeking for something.And that something wont reveal themselves to me until I m ready.
-That I should travel around the world.I got so many questions I wanna ask the world.And I can only acheive that unless I travel my ownself.
-That I should become a vegetarian.Its sick the way those guys just killed animals killed the cows and hang them in poles just like that.That is wrong weii.Eventhough they are animals they deserve a better life.They are still part of nature part of the environment.
why do I have a feeling I'll end up as a nun arr?

*drums roll*
WELCOME BACK TO MALAYSIA GRACE YEE LILI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:D
:D

haha u r so gonna kill me for putting ur picture here!! but i will put it anyway muahhaahha
cant wait for my exams to over so that can meet up!!!
speakin of exams gahhhh
chem practical-- ermm it was like all d past yr got titrations n stuff but argh apparently the titration reading is 26.6 n mine is 27.1!!! T^T T^T byebye 3 marks *sob* n i brought my whole pile of past yr inside and then jus copy directly onto the answer sheet cos the questions r similiar O.O not that i m complainin :D
M1-- ermmm d begining was ok until question 6 i have no freakin idea how come i cannot find d answer!! evry1 seems to got it except me T^T byebye 5 marks and then for the last questions i can prove d equation but cant seem to get the last answer byebye 6 marks T^T
physics practical-- of all the exams laa i cant believe this is the hardest wei!! have to be quarantined from 2-6 den frm 7-9 =.= gahhhh why la mckl only satu physics lab so durin quarantine chiching does what chiching does best = waste time.so spent the whole time honing my cho tai ti skills until i m a poker expert and my longest record is 4 wins in 1 row!!! muahahhahah and get 2 order mcD oso hahah anyway back to physics prac when i first walk into the lab my first reaction was to ::blink:: cos the apparatus in front of me is super complicated then we get question sheet and blabla start doin experiment it was not until i got a percentage difference of 70% (!!!!!) then i started panicking @%&* but cnt repeat experiment!!!! argh argh den switch to another experiment and i only put 1 spoon of ice inside the water not 1 heapful of ice!!! so my temp diff is only 8 celsius while others gt 12 celsius T^T T^T (i have no idea why i didnt put in 1 heapful instead) den come to the string tension experiment and i have no idea whether my answer is correct *in doubt* and the fter the test discuss with evry1 and apparently my % difference isnt the highest others gt like 140% etc *panicky* crap laa i guess i have to repeat physics practical exam weii T^T T^T

YEAR 2008
okkk!!! so i made a special edition post to commerate the year 2008.
well all in all year 2007 was a different year for me cos went to a totally new environment but see the same faces again haha i have no idea whether this is a good thing or a bad thing cos like my best fren,olivia ho li yoke is still wiv me n we cn still chat like we always do back in highschool.but on d flip side cant really hung out wiv new ppl much oh well *shrugs* college life is different frm highskl as in d fact that skl hours are less and we get 2 go out n eat n stuff.and the highlight lunchtime restaurant would be "RESTORAN CHEONG HUA" ^^ me like the vegetarian food there!!! haha and 1/2 of my classmates r like frm wesley so no biggie there.plus lecturers r like highskl lecturers type normal classes homework etc
okokok!!! so wat happen in 2007?
oh crap what really did happen in 2007?
*tries hard 2 recall*
*tries really hard 2 recall*
*gives up*
okok i cant remember wat happen in 2007 but i think its in my past entries has all the events there.but i guess character wise i change a bit
CHI CHING'S CHANGES
1.I become a vegetarian
i m officially a baby vegetarian cos i only stop eatin meat for like 4 months and NO the reason is not because i follow vijal but because in macau this chinese doctor said that my health is very bad.he talks as if i m gonna die wen i m 40 or something so i have to start eatin healthily.so i m now into those healthy eating fad and stuff.n i m into exercise and stuff
daily meal plan
breakfast : cereal,nuts and blueberries with milk
lunch: yeemee,panmee,horfun all kinds of mee
dinner: rice with toufu or veggies
snacks: apples and oranges (i love oranges and i think i ate a bit too much cos my skin is so sickly yellow colour)(i ate 2 orange per day btw)
2 I become less senstitive
i mean last time wen i was young n gay (as in happy gay not gay gay),i used to get irritated so easily and start behaving like a bitch.but now wen ppl yell at me i cn just forget about it and act like nothin happen i guess i dun see the point in yelling back instead i would look at d person n think "poor soul gettin so angry" o.O i've feelin more like a nun each day
3.I become less high
i mean back in highschool i use to laugh loudly scream loudly and stuff but now no more now i m like a piece of dead fish who doesnt experience much emotions in a day.i got an emotional range of a teaspoon.which i dunno is a good thing or a bad thing.hmmmm
4.I learned that i wanna help other people in my career
i wanna choose a career where i help people like social services et cetera i dun wanna work like my dad like that work so hard and make more money and stuff but in terms of spritual wealth he doesnt gain much
so to end this post here are some things 2 look forward to the year 2008!!!
i m officialy goin 2 be a university student by the end of the year!! *gasp*
i have to endure NS for 2.5 mths wake up in d mornin n march doin exercises etc etc expose to the sun for a minimun of 6 hrs per day oh the joy
i have to decide what i wanna become wen i m old and wrinkly!! arghhhh i hate makin career choices blekk
but psychology is my choice for now.
apparently some feng shui guy predict i m gonna be a an accountant (huh?!!!)
BEIJING 2008 OLYMPICS!!!! *woot* olympics mania wei i hope china win more medals wakkakkaka (pro china)
leap year !!!! woohoo one of the d days in 4 yrs weiii
D GRAY MAN MANGA !!! hope it runs more chapters !!!!

bewarned: chiching is high.
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HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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current wishlist
-PAULO COELHO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
his books i mean omgomgomgomgomg i WANNNNN his books currently i have only 2 with me which is ~~the alchemist~~ and ~~the witch of portabello~~ i wanna MORE!!!!!! i wanna read the rest like the valkryies,by the river preidra i sat n wept (ignore my disastrous spelling) etc
*cue britney spears song*
"gimme gimme more gimme gimme more"
-My sister keeper by Jodi Piccoult
this blog has officially become chiching desires announcements blog.for the very few living humans who read it pls proceed to lend stuff to deprived chiching.
-Neil Gaiman books
me wanna read ~~~STARDUST~~~ cos me love d movie!!! i love d whole concept of modern fairytales thing n d fantasy element in it.haha n d dead ppl soul is funny.i read a the first few chapters in d bookstore of his books d other day n i love it!!!
-Philip Pullman: The amber spyglass
i read already the first 2 books courtesy of shajitha n me WANNN read the third one!!!! the 2nd book ending is hang n me wanna read it!!!!!!!!

Event: MACAU TRIP
Date: 8-10 November
Okay!!! Am finally going to blog about my trip to MACAU!!!! (for the blur,macau is next to hongkong)
in chronological order
Day 1
pack, take cab blablabla then take a flight I HATE SITTING IN AEROPLANES cos i have air sickness and all den i hav 2 eat this air sickness pills ok den reach macau!!! yay!!! den take bus 2 the hotel macau is very different from what i expected cause the road sign r in portugese, cantonese and english.O.O but despite the national language being protugese n stuff i dun see any protugese ppl around cos all around me is chinses ppl n its like in all those hong kong movies n all where the ppl live in flats and the place is seriously crammed n stuff.Then we reach the hotel wiv a protugese name ermm cant remmeber the name infamte something i love the hotel!!!! i love all hotels actually cos got nice nice bathrooms n i love d beds cos its all cosy n all!!! *hugs* n fuiyoh the tv channels is like whoa so many weii macau being near hongkong gets all the tv transmissions n apparently hong kong got over 100 tv programmes transmission!!! fuiyoh not bad then at nite went down 2 walk in macau n THERE ARE 30 CASINOS IN MACAU goodness las vegas china style walk till my legs hurt i can finally understand why macau-ians r so skinny weii cos their main source of transportation is walkin!!! since the road r all crammy n stuff they spend their days walkin about n at nite at 8.30 can even so many skl kids clad i their uniforms walkin about tsk tsk i never realise how big malaysia is until i went macau cos even the restaurants r tiny n we hav2 crammed with 2 other ppl on the tables n macau dishes is served in seriously BIG portions like double of our wantan mee or yee mee size culture shock n at nite the city is alive with lights n all n frm a far distance its so pretty!!!!
Day 2
woke up n stuff n its time 2 go 2 ZHUHAI!!!! its located in china beside macau then went to the immigration dept n all one thing i notice about the china ppl crossin d border is that they walked really fast !!! its almost like they are rushing about for goodness knows wat n would bump you to the side if u ever crossed their way O.O n a number of them even fight in the lines while queuing up to cross the borders i didnt realise how malaysianised i am until i was standing beside the pack of them cos malaysian chineses n china chinese accent,thinking and even from the way we look are totally different from them.then after crossing the border our tour guide appeared n bring us sight seeing around the place.
1st stop:theme park
its a beautiful theme park located at the mountains n we get 2 sit a cable up 2 the mountains!!! whee~~ but genting cable cars r so much safer compared 2 the cable car that we sat cos the only thing preventing us frm flying off the cablecar would be the metal rod stuck between our legs.after reaching d peaks get 2 see the whole of zhuhai n its pretty!!!! then there's a whole love legend surrouding the temple n we get 2 see the statues build after the lovers.then we ride a ermm cheaplak rollercoaster down.cos the guy was controlling the speed n its slow!!! :(
2nd stop:temple
so we went to this old temple n stuff and i saw turtles sunbathing!!! hahahahhahah the turtles was lying flat on their tummies on top of the rocks hahahha n den saw ducks n u get 2 feed the ducks!!!
3rd stop: ancient monuments of chen fang house
chen fang is some rich chinese dude long time ago n the remain of his house is still there we get to see all the old old houses in china long long time ago n d place is huge weii!!! we get 2 visit the old calligraphy works also n history about chen fang the place was really nice n all really cultural n the archictecture was amazing
4th stop: some chinese medicine factory
one thing that goes side by side with a tour in china would be the visits to commercial sites *pissed* cos we are pactically being forced to go 2 this stupid room n listen 2 this guy marketing their products!!! then we got pushed 2 see this chinese medical doctor n when it come 2 my turn he keep sayin all this mean stuff like my kidney n liver is gonna have problems or something like that!!! *pissed off* talkin as if i m really unhealthy n all!! T^T T^T so now i have 2 eat stupid chinese herbs n seahorse!!!!
then at nite went to the venetian hotel which is like asia 2nd largest hotel or something n its gorgeous!!!! its modelled after the venetian architecture n stuff n there's even an indoor granola (small boats) fuiyoh n d place was really nice n all the chandeliers r really gorgeous n even d bathrooms have golden toilet seats *starry eyes*
then i manage 2 went into the casino compound!!! muahhaahhaha n witness every1 losing their money.well after losing like the 40 bucks my dad gave me i just stop the idea that i would strike it rich cos the place probably controlled by the inside people.as in like 9 out of 10 people would lose money cos they being manipulated by the inside casino people anyway so i cant understand why people want 2 try their luck and place such big bets to lose it all in the end.
Day 3 :flight back to KL
so catch the 12' o clock flight back 2 kl !!! i missed kl hahahha even though surrounded by chinese in macau i feel like a total sesat foreigner

Event: Movie marathon
Venue: Times Square
okies!!! so on friday went out wiv shajy,yili,timing n weekiat 2 watch resident evil 3:Extinction.n before d show yili n i was sesat sigh put 2 directionless people together n tis is wat u got i cant believe i tersesat even though times square is like my second home O.O
chiching's reviews.Resident Evil 3: Extinction
hmmm personally i would give it ermmm 3/5 for the action scenes n stuff n milla jovovich is HOT weii!!! n d action scenes so cool!!! i wish i can shoot like that!!! hahahah i mean wen d mutants come towards her she slice them off wiv her 2 parangs den d mutants jus felll down d floor like that !!! coolness n got another hot girl i dunnno wat the actress name n she can kick ass oso weii sighh *looks at self meagle karate skills* n so depressing laa cos so many people died T^T especially got one hero who shajy is swoonin after oso die i dunno wats d actor name but he sacrifice himselff by stuckin bombs onto his body den rush into the mutants crowd n set d bomb on fire killin like 75% of d mutants n himself n before that he smoked a cigarette like that's d thing he wanted 2 do before he died T^T T^T n got another girl acted by christina millian n she died oso!!!! cos she try 2 help d people escaped so risk herself gettin pecked by mutant crows *blows on tissue*
so in conclusion,hot woman + lots of fighting + gore = resident evil 3
den after that we went n watch another movie!! weekiat went home so left me shajy timing n yili.n we decide to watch another movie n make it a movie marathon but problem is we cant decide which movie!!! cos all of us hav our own opinions n stuff haha n like shajy said if we r a venn diagram in maths we hav no intersection haha so in the end me n shaj went n watch the seeker cos we r book nerds n the seeker is based on a fantasy novel.timing n yili went n watch the detective
chiching reviews: The Seeker: The dark is rising
the begining was nice n all but then halfway the story sorta blow out off steam cos its so random.I mean the whole story is about this boy who on his 14 birthday gained his true powers basically like those normal quiet boys who turned out 2 b heroes etc the boy discovered that he is the last of an "elder" and he is d seeker that is supposed 2 look out for "signs"
sounds cool huh the storyline? but its actually quite dissapointin cos the story shift so abruptly i mean suddenly he travel through time n landed on d barbarians age the another time he landed on victorian age so all very random n very abrupt.
haha but gt on part after he gained his powers he was fighting with his brother n he pushed 2 of them really hard (not something he can do before he gain his powers) n sent them flying onto the stairs haha n den d brothers was like "what is that all about?" then one of them said" i dunno,puberty?" hahhahaahhahahahha
all is all i would give it ermmm 2.5/5