bewarned : emo post to the few ppl hu read this (michelle etc) dun read it if u dun wan ur mood 2 b crushed
i want a gang not 1 close fren
i want a gang of nice sincere frens nt a gang hu backstab each other once someone leaves the table i swear if i heard someone again backstabbin at each other i will scream why is it like this why must certain ppl screw evrytin up why all the drama why r u lying at each other why r u talkin bad about each other frens dun do this to each other frens dun go tell other ppl n d whole world each other secrets frens dun cal their frens bitches frens dun laugh at their frens
I want a close fren that shares same classes with me my only close fren d one that i cn talk 2 to is in a diff class n out timetables clashed so i cnt talk 2 her cnt share with her my class stories n cnt eat break 2geter why must i be in alpha laaa i wanna go beta where i cn talk 2 li yoke like we always do back in highschool i wanna play cards wiv li yoke n hui wen n jingle tey all
i want a gang u noe a gang where u play 2geter n trust each other a gang where i cn talk freely
its been such a long time since i cn talk freely in a gang nowadays i just join random ppl n just listen quietly the only time where i cn talk freely is with li yoke tey all n tere r nt in my class so i cnt hang out wiv them muchh
*cries heart out*
its been such a long time since i talk freely
not that i have no frens but its just ppl that is acquantances not real frens just random ppl whom u noe deep down that u wont click off as good frens
i wanna talk freely i dun wanna remain silent like this i dun wanna remain a stone
oh god i m feeling more stoned evryday n ppl whom i dun trust keep buggin me n backstabbin their frens n tellin me their frens secret why cant u juts leave n go? n stop buggin me
*scream*
i wanna wanna talk i wanna wanna have a fren
i want a fren thats all
is that too much to ask?
T^T
T^T
i dun wanna be a a stone
i want to live
i dun wanna be a stone n just listen quietly to ppl conversation n just laugh at their jokes
i wanna talk freely
where d stuff i said isnt weird
guess in my current situation thats impossible
T^T
all this backstabbing that u guys r doin (u noe hu u r) is killin me
i want a fren
a sincere fren
i cannot continue being such a cold person anymore cos one day i will crumble
n i m scared i cnt get up once i crumbled
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Orientation
okkkk so its orientation for the newbies and their class name is lamda and gamma haha makes alpha and beta sounds so much better weii haha so ermm didnt went for the orientation in d mornin cos i wanna sleep!! dun really noe wat happen either but ermmmm ragging is normal lorr all the newbies have 2 get our signature but no fair laa some people frm jan batch names is not on d list n i put my name as sotong and whoever draw me a sotong i will sign for them so it become my trademark n a few juniors come up 2 me n ask me " can i draw a sotong for u?" haihz sigh some people really dunno how 2 draw a sotong few gave me an octopus n 1 even draw me a prawn!! goodness and ermm some normal ragging is singing doing random stuff like fetching water bottle etc n some extreme ones are like d one me weekiat shajy n vijal rag a guy 2 propose 2 a girl for a date for ob nite n he got rejected omg poor fellow in a whole room of ppl he gt rejected *guilty* poor guy is scarred for life weiii but he didnt look sad though he just treat it as a joke n manpreet is seriously mean at ragging laa ask people to climb up n down the staricase 5 times,ask joseph brother 2 stand at d centre of library with his leg up,ask pikyin sister 2 sit under a table etc etc and random ragging is askin d juniors 2 play ice n fire O.O d most extreme and meanest one is chun meng laa!! ask a junior 2 eat chilipadi meanie *smacks* and arjan put his nickname as horny so gt random juniors goin around askin random questions such as "r u horny?" hahahhahhahah
so comments on this yr batch is they look so young!!! i mean they look so innocent n all haha n theres a lot of sisters n brothers pair like khai wern brother,pikyin sister,kenneth sister,joseph brother,christie brother,neighbour brother who is oso my neighbour whom i discovered days ago etc etc n NO HOT GUYS!!! ZERO NIL NADA sighhhh but there is one who looks 10% like peterpan!!!! cos that day durin pre u meeting i was sitting facing the crowd n most of the time i ddint wear glasses so wen i turned i thought i saw a ghost of peterpan *gasp* cos he look like peterpan frm certain angle den later wen he ask my signature n i get 2 look close up properly only realise he look 15% like peterpan *phew* frm near he doesnt look like him at all *phew* but still ARGH just wen i forgotten all about peterpan his lookalike come n haunt me T^T T^T T^T sigh hav2 wait till uni to gawk at hot guys
orientation is normal normal lorr i guess its fun for people who likes 2 bully other people but i tink its direspectful just because we r there for 1 yr doesnt give right to treat them like that
okkkk so its orientation for the newbies and their class name is lamda and gamma haha makes alpha and beta sounds so much better weii haha so ermm didnt went for the orientation in d mornin cos i wanna sleep!! dun really noe wat happen either but ermmmm ragging is normal lorr all the newbies have 2 get our signature but no fair laa some people frm jan batch names is not on d list n i put my name as sotong and whoever draw me a sotong i will sign for them so it become my trademark n a few juniors come up 2 me n ask me " can i draw a sotong for u?" haihz sigh some people really dunno how 2 draw a sotong few gave me an octopus n 1 even draw me a prawn!! goodness and ermm some normal ragging is singing doing random stuff like fetching water bottle etc n some extreme ones are like d one me weekiat shajy n vijal rag a guy 2 propose 2 a girl for a date for ob nite n he got rejected omg poor fellow in a whole room of ppl he gt rejected *guilty* poor guy is scarred for life weiii but he didnt look sad though he just treat it as a joke n manpreet is seriously mean at ragging laa ask people to climb up n down the staricase 5 times,ask joseph brother 2 stand at d centre of library with his leg up,ask pikyin sister 2 sit under a table etc etc and random ragging is askin d juniors 2 play ice n fire O.O d most extreme and meanest one is chun meng laa!! ask a junior 2 eat chilipadi meanie *smacks* and arjan put his nickname as horny so gt random juniors goin around askin random questions such as "r u horny?" hahahhahhahah
so comments on this yr batch is they look so young!!! i mean they look so innocent n all haha n theres a lot of sisters n brothers pair like khai wern brother,pikyin sister,kenneth sister,joseph brother,christie brother,neighbour brother who is oso my neighbour whom i discovered days ago etc etc n NO HOT GUYS!!! ZERO NIL NADA sighhhh but there is one who looks 10% like peterpan!!!! cos that day durin pre u meeting i was sitting facing the crowd n most of the time i ddint wear glasses so wen i turned i thought i saw a ghost of peterpan *gasp* cos he look like peterpan frm certain angle den later wen he ask my signature n i get 2 look close up properly only realise he look 15% like peterpan *phew* frm near he doesnt look like him at all *phew* but still ARGH just wen i forgotten all about peterpan his lookalike come n haunt me T^T T^T T^T sigh hav2 wait till uni to gawk at hot guys
orientation is normal normal lorr i guess its fun for people who likes 2 bully other people but i tink its direspectful just because we r there for 1 yr doesnt give right to treat them like that
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Language of The Heart
Yesterday while laying on my bed,I chanced upon the language of the heart.The language of the heart is very weak but thankfully its still there.Thankfully it havent died yet underneath all these social pressure and expectations.Haha.I was just laying down on my bed thinking and thinking of all these random things then it just hit me.
So this is what the language of the heart is telling me:
-That I m in a wrong situation.I shouldn't be in A-Levels.I should instead go to a liberal arts education system where people get to developed more skills,explore more about themselves etc.I think the education system is wrong.Because all it has produced is job ready machines and not people with awareness and who can think.This is wrong and it will crumble down one day when it realise they are just moving at the same point and not moving forward.But sigh I cant do much because my parents want me to be in A-Levels.
-That I should become a psychologist and help people.I know I will have my greatest strenght only when I help people.I have no idea how those multi billionaires got their motivation from but I knew that I m only strong when I help people.I still remember few months back when I help a blind and something inside me just blossom and its such a wonderful feeling.I feel so strong then like I could conquer anything.
-That I should paint again.These restrictions around me all these rules and regulations is killing me.I need to get out of this situation.I need to go somewhere open somewhere liberal where I could paint again.Paint anything I want Paint my thoughts paint the scenery and just soaked myself in my art.Lose myself in my art.Its been such a long time since I felt that and I wanna feel that again.
-That I should read more.There is something calling for me.And I am seeking for it.
I m not seeking for happiness because happiness is within yourself.
I m not seeking for companionship because eventhough someone is miles away You can still see them inside you.
I m seeking for something.And that something wont reveal themselves to me until I m ready.
-That I should travel around the world.I got so many questions I wanna ask the world.And I can only acheive that unless I travel my ownself.
-That I should become a vegetarian.Its sick the way those guys just killed animals killed the cows and hang them in poles just like that.That is wrong weii.Eventhough they are animals they deserve a better life.They are still part of nature part of the environment.
why do I have a feeling I'll end up as a nun arr?
Yesterday while laying on my bed,I chanced upon the language of the heart.The language of the heart is very weak but thankfully its still there.Thankfully it havent died yet underneath all these social pressure and expectations.Haha.I was just laying down on my bed thinking and thinking of all these random things then it just hit me.
So this is what the language of the heart is telling me:
-That I m in a wrong situation.I shouldn't be in A-Levels.I should instead go to a liberal arts education system where people get to developed more skills,explore more about themselves etc.I think the education system is wrong.Because all it has produced is job ready machines and not people with awareness and who can think.This is wrong and it will crumble down one day when it realise they are just moving at the same point and not moving forward.But sigh I cant do much because my parents want me to be in A-Levels.
-That I should become a psychologist and help people.I know I will have my greatest strenght only when I help people.I have no idea how those multi billionaires got their motivation from but I knew that I m only strong when I help people.I still remember few months back when I help a blind and something inside me just blossom and its such a wonderful feeling.I feel so strong then like I could conquer anything.
-That I should paint again.These restrictions around me all these rules and regulations is killing me.I need to get out of this situation.I need to go somewhere open somewhere liberal where I could paint again.Paint anything I want Paint my thoughts paint the scenery and just soaked myself in my art.Lose myself in my art.Its been such a long time since I felt that and I wanna feel that again.
-That I should read more.There is something calling for me.And I am seeking for it.
I m not seeking for happiness because happiness is within yourself.
I m not seeking for companionship because eventhough someone is miles away You can still see them inside you.
I m seeking for something.And that something wont reveal themselves to me until I m ready.
-That I should travel around the world.I got so many questions I wanna ask the world.And I can only acheive that unless I travel my ownself.
-That I should become a vegetarian.Its sick the way those guys just killed animals killed the cows and hang them in poles just like that.That is wrong weii.Eventhough they are animals they deserve a better life.They are still part of nature part of the environment.
why do I have a feeling I'll end up as a nun arr?
Saturday, January 12, 2008
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*drums roll*
WELCOME BACK TO MALAYSIA GRACE YEE LILI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WELCOME BACK TO MALAYSIA GRACE YEE LILI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:D
:D
:D
haha u r so gonna kill me for putting ur picture here!! but i will put it anyway muahhaahha
cant wait for my exams to over so that can meet up!!!
speakin of exams gahhhh
chem practical-- ermm it was like all d past yr got titrations n stuff but argh apparently the titration reading is 26.6 n mine is 27.1!!! T^T T^T byebye 3 marks *sob* n i brought my whole pile of past yr inside and then jus copy directly onto the answer sheet cos the questions r similiar O.O not that i m complainin :D
M1-- ermmm d begining was ok until question 6 i have no freakin idea how come i cannot find d answer!! evry1 seems to got it except me T^T byebye 5 marks and then for the last questions i can prove d equation but cant seem to get the last answer byebye 6 marks T^T
physics practical-- of all the exams laa i cant believe this is the hardest wei!! have to be quarantined from 2-6 den frm 7-9 =.= gahhhh why la mckl only satu physics lab so durin quarantine chiching does what chiching does best = waste time.so spent the whole time honing my cho tai ti skills until i m a poker expert and my longest record is 4 wins in 1 row!!! muahahhahah and get 2 order mcD oso hahah anyway back to physics prac when i first walk into the lab my first reaction was to ::blink:: cos the apparatus in front of me is super complicated then we get question sheet and blabla start doin experiment it was not until i got a percentage difference of 70% (!!!!!) then i started panicking @%&* but cnt repeat experiment!!!! argh argh den switch to another experiment and i only put 1 spoon of ice inside the water not 1 heapful of ice!!! so my temp diff is only 8 celsius while others gt 12 celsius T^T T^T (i have no idea why i didnt put in 1 heapful instead) den come to the string tension experiment and i have no idea whether my answer is correct *in doubt* and the fter the test discuss with evry1 and apparently my % difference isnt the highest others gt like 140% etc *panicky* crap laa i guess i have to repeat physics practical exam weii T^T T^T
cant wait for my exams to over so that can meet up!!!
speakin of exams gahhhh
chem practical-- ermm it was like all d past yr got titrations n stuff but argh apparently the titration reading is 26.6 n mine is 27.1!!! T^T T^T byebye 3 marks *sob* n i brought my whole pile of past yr inside and then jus copy directly onto the answer sheet cos the questions r similiar O.O not that i m complainin :D
M1-- ermmm d begining was ok until question 6 i have no freakin idea how come i cannot find d answer!! evry1 seems to got it except me T^T byebye 5 marks and then for the last questions i can prove d equation but cant seem to get the last answer byebye 6 marks T^T
physics practical-- of all the exams laa i cant believe this is the hardest wei!! have to be quarantined from 2-6 den frm 7-9 =.= gahhhh why la mckl only satu physics lab so durin quarantine chiching does what chiching does best = waste time.so spent the whole time honing my cho tai ti skills until i m a poker expert and my longest record is 4 wins in 1 row!!! muahahhahah and get 2 order mcD oso hahah anyway back to physics prac when i first walk into the lab my first reaction was to ::blink:: cos the apparatus in front of me is super complicated then we get question sheet and blabla start doin experiment it was not until i got a percentage difference of 70% (!!!!!) then i started panicking @%&* but cnt repeat experiment!!!! argh argh den switch to another experiment and i only put 1 spoon of ice inside the water not 1 heapful of ice!!! so my temp diff is only 8 celsius while others gt 12 celsius T^T T^T (i have no idea why i didnt put in 1 heapful instead) den come to the string tension experiment and i have no idea whether my answer is correct *in doubt* and the fter the test discuss with evry1 and apparently my % difference isnt the highest others gt like 140% etc *panicky* crap laa i guess i have to repeat physics practical exam weii T^T T^T
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
YEAR 2008
okkk!!! so i made a special edition post to commerate the year 2008.
well all in all year 2007 was a different year for me cos went to a totally new environment but see the same faces again haha i have no idea whether this is a good thing or a bad thing cos like my best fren,olivia ho li yoke is still wiv me n we cn still chat like we always do back in highschool.but on d flip side cant really hung out wiv new ppl much oh well *shrugs* college life is different frm highskl as in d fact that skl hours are less and we get 2 go out n eat n stuff.and the highlight lunchtime restaurant would be "RESTORAN CHEONG HUA" ^^ me like the vegetarian food there!!! haha and 1/2 of my classmates r like frm wesley so no biggie there.plus lecturers r like highskl lecturers type normal classes homework etc
okokok!!! so wat happen in 2007?
oh crap what really did happen in 2007?
*tries hard 2 recall*
*tries really hard 2 recall*
*gives up*
okok i cant remember wat happen in 2007 but i think its in my past entries has all the events there.but i guess character wise i change a bit
CHI CHING'S CHANGES
1.I become a vegetarian
i m officially a baby vegetarian cos i only stop eatin meat for like 4 months and NO the reason is not because i follow vijal but because in macau this chinese doctor said that my health is very bad.he talks as if i m gonna die wen i m 40 or something so i have to start eatin healthily.so i m now into those healthy eating fad and stuff.n i m into exercise and stuff
daily meal plan
breakfast : cereal,nuts and blueberries with milk
lunch: yeemee,panmee,horfun all kinds of mee
dinner: rice with toufu or veggies
snacks: apples and oranges (i love oranges and i think i ate a bit too much cos my skin is so sickly yellow colour)(i ate 2 orange per day btw)
2 I become less senstitive
i mean last time wen i was young n gay (as in happy gay not gay gay),i used to get irritated so easily and start behaving like a bitch.but now wen ppl yell at me i cn just forget about it and act like nothin happen i guess i dun see the point in yelling back instead i would look at d person n think "poor soul gettin so angry" o.O i've feelin more like a nun each day
3.I become less high
i mean back in highschool i use to laugh loudly scream loudly and stuff but now no more now i m like a piece of dead fish who doesnt experience much emotions in a day.i got an emotional range of a teaspoon.which i dunno is a good thing or a bad thing.hmmmm
4.I learned that i wanna help other people in my career
i wanna choose a career where i help people like social services et cetera i dun wanna work like my dad like that work so hard and make more money and stuff but in terms of spritual wealth he doesnt gain much
so to end this post here are some things 2 look forward to the year 2008!!!
i m officialy goin 2 be a university student by the end of the year!! *gasp*
i have to endure NS for 2.5 mths wake up in d mornin n march doin exercises etc etc expose to the sun for a minimun of 6 hrs per day oh the joy
i have to decide what i wanna become wen i m old and wrinkly!! arghhhh i hate makin career choices blekk
but psychology is my choice for now.
apparently some feng shui guy predict i m gonna be a an accountant (huh?!!!)
BEIJING 2008 OLYMPICS!!!! *woot* olympics mania wei i hope china win more medals wakkakkaka (pro china)
leap year !!!! woohoo one of the d days in 4 yrs weiii
D GRAY MAN MANGA !!! hope it runs more chapters !!!!
okkk!!! so i made a special edition post to commerate the year 2008.
well all in all year 2007 was a different year for me cos went to a totally new environment but see the same faces again haha i have no idea whether this is a good thing or a bad thing cos like my best fren,olivia ho li yoke is still wiv me n we cn still chat like we always do back in highschool.but on d flip side cant really hung out wiv new ppl much oh well *shrugs* college life is different frm highskl as in d fact that skl hours are less and we get 2 go out n eat n stuff.and the highlight lunchtime restaurant would be "RESTORAN CHEONG HUA" ^^ me like the vegetarian food there!!! haha and 1/2 of my classmates r like frm wesley so no biggie there.plus lecturers r like highskl lecturers type normal classes homework etc
okokok!!! so wat happen in 2007?
oh crap what really did happen in 2007?
*tries hard 2 recall*
*tries really hard 2 recall*
*gives up*
okok i cant remember wat happen in 2007 but i think its in my past entries has all the events there.but i guess character wise i change a bit
CHI CHING'S CHANGES
1.I become a vegetarian
i m officially a baby vegetarian cos i only stop eatin meat for like 4 months and NO the reason is not because i follow vijal but because in macau this chinese doctor said that my health is very bad.he talks as if i m gonna die wen i m 40 or something so i have to start eatin healthily.so i m now into those healthy eating fad and stuff.n i m into exercise and stuff
daily meal plan
breakfast : cereal,nuts and blueberries with milk
lunch: yeemee,panmee,horfun all kinds of mee
dinner: rice with toufu or veggies
snacks: apples and oranges (i love oranges and i think i ate a bit too much cos my skin is so sickly yellow colour)(i ate 2 orange per day btw)
2 I become less senstitive
i mean last time wen i was young n gay (as in happy gay not gay gay),i used to get irritated so easily and start behaving like a bitch.but now wen ppl yell at me i cn just forget about it and act like nothin happen i guess i dun see the point in yelling back instead i would look at d person n think "poor soul gettin so angry" o.O i've feelin more like a nun each day
3.I become less high
i mean back in highschool i use to laugh loudly scream loudly and stuff but now no more now i m like a piece of dead fish who doesnt experience much emotions in a day.i got an emotional range of a teaspoon.which i dunno is a good thing or a bad thing.hmmmm
4.I learned that i wanna help other people in my career
i wanna choose a career where i help people like social services et cetera i dun wanna work like my dad like that work so hard and make more money and stuff but in terms of spritual wealth he doesnt gain much
so to end this post here are some things 2 look forward to the year 2008!!!
i m officialy goin 2 be a university student by the end of the year!! *gasp*
i have to endure NS for 2.5 mths wake up in d mornin n march doin exercises etc etc expose to the sun for a minimun of 6 hrs per day oh the joy
i have to decide what i wanna become wen i m old and wrinkly!! arghhhh i hate makin career choices blekk
but psychology is my choice for now.
apparently some feng shui guy predict i m gonna be a an accountant (huh?!!!)
BEIJING 2008 OLYMPICS!!!! *woot* olympics mania wei i hope china win more medals wakkakkaka (pro china)
leap year !!!! woohoo one of the d days in 4 yrs weiii
D GRAY MAN MANGA !!! hope it runs more chapters !!!!
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